My final semester has started... it is already flying by. I am sure it will be May before I know it. It is so hard to believe... but something that I am extremely proud of. I will be a graduate... have a degree... be in the real world, for real. It is all so much to take in and process.
Post-College life is starting to take shape as well. I applied to the Americorps NCCC program. I have been invited to serve and have been assigned to the Sacramento Campus. The tenure of service is 1o months. They told me that I can expect to be serving at least half of my time in the Gulf Coast, which is something I am very excited about. At first I wasn't sure whether or not this is something that I should do or not, but it really seems like it will be an amazing experience full of learning and good times. 10 months away from home is kind of scary.... but at the same time... I think that it will amazing and I will benefit from the time away from my comfort zone. I feel like I grew a lot while I was at Camp Pinewood, and that was only for 3 months. 10 months doing something that will seriously improve the quality of peoples lives is something that I think I should take full advantage of. I was nervous about deciding what to do after college, however, this opportunity just kind of presented itself... and I am going to see where it takes me.
I feel like each day I live I am growing, learning and changing. I am becoming more aware of the world around me each day and truly what a gift we are given each day we wake up with air to breathe and life to live. My faith and trust in God continues to grow and change as well, bringing we ever closer to God and realizing he is my best friend. It has taken me a long time to get where I am and be comfortable in my own skin. I am learning the beauty of life and little things. I am missing old friends and making new ones, taking chances and laying it all on the line, living- freely and truly.
Tragedy like my family has recently experienced really causes you to look at your life; what you are doing to help yourself and others. We were not designed to be ordinary, we were made to be unique individuals with our own special gifts and talents to use and bring glory to the one that gave them to us in the first place. I have learned so much through the loss of Mary Kate.... and I hate that it has taken me so long to really put all the pieces together. I know I have wasted time being petty, stupid and ignorant to the things that really matter in life. But yesterday is gone, and so are all the missed opportunities. However, the amazing thing is that each day we wake up, we are given a fresh start, a chance to do the right thing, make the right choice, and maybe even to change the world. Start small and work our way to something magical.... it can happen.
I am learning to find peace in the most simple of things- music with a good beat, friends and family that love me, conversation that makes me laugh and smile.... moments and memories... those are the things I want to live for. Not something temporary, but something tangible. Something that I can feel, touch, and love. We all are only here for such a short time, why waste one day... why waste such an amazing and powerful gift? I don't plan to.
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