Thoughts from the "Real World"

So much has happened since I last blogged... it seems there is never enough time in the day or days in the week. Time is passing so quickly, yet slowly at the same time.

Work is going well. Things are progressing nicely and I am learning so much each day. The routine of being in an office is a little hard to get used to after being in a classroom all day, everyday for much of my life. I miss school... well... aspects of school- the people, the intellectual aspects, maybe most of the fun and carefree nature that came along with college years. However, I do not miss the homework... so glad that is over!

It seems the day I graduated, I took on a whole lot of responsibility and didn't even really have time to enjoy the sense of accomplishment. But, that is the way life works sometimes.... most of the time really. As soon as you get through one thing, good or bad, there is always something else to follow. This is a very odd stage in a person's life... this whole post-graduation, pre-real life stage. I feel in limbo at times, too old for certain things, yet way too young for others. It is a big change and a major transition and these things never really come easy. I am thinking things will even out in a few months, I will have settled into more a routine and I will find new places to belong and become active in.... it will just take time..... just like everything else.

One of the most odd aspects of all this is the way that the friends and people you were so close to during 4 years of college are the people that you feel most distant from. It isn't because they mean to or even really want to be, it is just what naturally occurs during this phase of our lives. We are all concentrating so much on establishing ourselves and trying to figure out where we belong, that we often forget the people who helped shape us into who we are today. Sometime I wonder if I will be forgotten or will I forget people.... I would like to think no, but life lessons have taught me better.

The fear of being forgotten.... it is something I think everyone thinks about from time to time. Will time, distance, and obstacles lead to the demise of many of the most important friendships that I have had over the years... or we will be able conquer the things that are often hardest overcome in relationships? There are so many questions that come into my mind, so much to think about, worry about, lose sleep over, and dream about. I wonder about my past, my future, my destiny and my legacy. What will people remember me for, will they remember me at all?

Nearly time for my first, of many, meetings of the day. I must dash for now... but it feels good to just let the thoughts flow and open my heart, bare my soul, and allow each of you in..... allow you to remember.... or maybe just rediscover.

Until next time.....