Learning to live

Well, given the date on this post in relation to the last one, it is clear that I am a little behind on all this. So much has gone on in the last 2 months, it is insane.

Instead of reporting on how much time there is left until graduation, I can now say I am a college graduate. Life in the real world is amazing at times and so not what I was imagining at others. But, I am learning what it is all about and starting to get my bearings.

I have a job at VuPal, which is going great. I love it. I am learning so much each day and I am so thankful to have an opportunity like this. I feel like this is right where I am supposed to be right now. It is amazing what can happen when you just let go of the wheel and just go where things take you.

I have a great apartment in the highlands with Lauren. We are slowly, but surely getting things together. I love living here and I am really enjoying living on my own. Paying rent.... I hate. But, the sense of independence and accomplishment I get knowing that I can do this, is great. We are in the decorating process, which is a long one. But it has been a lot of fun. Neither one of us have been here too much this summer. We both have been home a lot and just have a lot going on.

I am hanging out with Sara, Kristina, Nadine, Ashley Heck, and Tiffany a lot and it has been a good summer thus far. I went to Lexington this past weekend and Alexa and I had lunch with some old teachers from high school... it was so good to get to see them and catch up. They all played such a vital role in my life, it was nice for them to get to share in mine and Alexa's accomplishment of graduating. I still haven't full grasped that I won't be going back to school in August.... I don't think it will truly hit me until then.

I really cannot complain about anything in my life right now.... I can always aspire to be a better person and make changes in my life.... but really I am at a good place. I feel strong and sturdy and I have learned to really stand on my own. There are definitely some things, some people that are missing from my life right now that I want back... but I can't really make that happen... one of the hardest lessons I have had to learn. So, until then... I will just keep them in my memories and hope that one day things will be good again.

I am really just trying to keep a positive frame of mind in life, in general. I think that it makes things so much better. I have my days where everything sucks... but I guess those days just make you appreciate the good ones even more. I just want to be the best that I can in every way... I am not there yet... not sure I will actually ever reach that state...but it gives me something to work for and push myself to.

Each day is a new journey, a new opportunity, a new chance to make the day magical..... some days don't quite live up to being magical.. but.... some days do-- Those are the days that make it all worth while.

I am constantly learning; about myself, my friends, my job, my family, my life..... I am learning how to live.