You just might find if you give it time, you will wave hello again

I am learning ever so quickly the value of being independent, being who you are, and letting things go. I am realizing the the world really can be cruel, isn't all sunshine and roses, and doesn't always give second chances. Bad choices, mistakes, miscues, wrong turns.... they all have consequences-- some more detrimental than others. I am understanding more and more everyday the value of family, friends and loved ones. How quickly they can be taken and how much it hurts when they are gone. I am finding comfort in the simple things in life-- laughing, old photographs, accomplishments and accolades, good conversation, clean sheets, smell good lotion, and oh so many random things that can bring one pleasure. I am reconnecting with old friends and allowing new friends into my life. I am deciding to live for the moment, not in the past or even in the future. I am planning for today, not tomorrow or next week. I think more so I am letting myself let go... let go of so much that has held me back, let me down, caused me pain, hurt, anger, and resentment. I am allowing myself to give second chances, and maybe even get them. I am playing the hand that has been dealt and hoping I can cash in on what cards I have. I am refusing to settle for less than I deserve, less that I am worth, or less that I can achieve. I am pushing my limits and stepping outside my comfort zone. I am living, laughing, and loving more than I ever have. I am going to a whole new level and hoping that a new perspective will allow me to see life completely different. Change can be hard, but it can also be oh so amazing. I am opening my eyes, ears, and heart and embracing the world in which I live. Sometimes the most brilliant and amazing things take a while to discover, even though they have been there all along. I am being me, who I am, for better or for worse.

A new year brings a whole lot of new things... I am ready... ready for whatever this year has to offer. Here I stand, arms and heart wide open; not looking but being ready to be found. Find me.... maybe even find me again.