Time Marches On....

I can't believe that it is already September. We just completed the second week of school, my 21st birthday is over, it will be Christmas before we know it. It just doesn't seem like time can be moving as fast as it is, but as slowly as it is at the same time.... if that made any sense.

There is so much in front of me that I am so thankful to have the opportunity to be a part of. I have great friends, a loving family and a good, strong foundation to start building my life upon. I can't really imagine that it is time for me to begin planning the rest of my life, however, I guess I shouldn't worry about it too much.... live one day at a time.

My 21st was a huge success.... a great time. We went to 4th Street, what an experience it was. I had a blast because all my groups of friends were together and everyone meshed really well. It is always so nice when that works out like that. It is so surreal that I am finally 21.... I never imagined myself at this stage in my life because it always seemed so far away before... now I am living it. So odd.

So much has gone on in the past year, I feel like I have grown and changed so much. I am proud of who I am, what I stand for and what I am all about. I know that I have come a long way and know I still have a long way to go. I am excited.... for what life might bring, what road it may take me down. "Life is a daring adventure, or nothing at all." I don't want it to be nothing at all.

I feel like I am learning the true meaning of love, of hurting, of friendship, sacrifice, and happiness. I thought I knew so much before, but I know now I only thought I knew. I had no idea what REAL LIFE was all about.... and I am happy I got a clue, rather than living in this fantasy world that wasn't teaching me anything nor leading me anywhere. I don't have destination as of now, other than wherever I might end up.... and I am content with that. being happy with who you are and optimistic about who you will become is the greatest feeling in the world. I only wish that others I care about will be able to attain this feeling, this contentment. Joy is simplicity.

There is so much going on in world now that I don't life, things I want to change.... it is a lot to take in. But the only way things will be different is if small groups of people keep fighting for what they know is right. Small groups may not make a lot of difference.... however, every large force today was once a small, dedicated group who would not quit. I will not quit.

"I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope... "

Maybe hope and faith aren't concrete.... but sometimes... it is all you have to go on.